Personal Growth · Random Thoughts

Dealing with Grief

I admit this is jarring. I would even call it ugly. It’s how I feel.

I am drowning in sadness today. Today it is just too much. There is too much pain… and it is ugly and dark and angry and even scary.

I am at the bottom,

Pain chokes my soul.

Tears I want to shed won’t come.

The Tears won’t fall,

Choking me.

Cracking apart.

Screams stick in my throat.

The pain won’t come out.

Today is a hard day. I know it will pass, but today is still here.

#openandbrave

Personal Growth

I Rise from the Ashes

Art Journal Project #100daychallege2020

My Affirmations lead to

My Gratitude, which leads to

Me: Rising from the Ashes of FEAR.

#artjournal #openandbrave

Food For Thought

Living in Social Distancing World

Taking pictures
Taking walks
Cuddles and Snuggles ROCK!
Drawing, Painting, Doodling
Sunshine and breezes Cooling
Puppy cuddles
Kitty nuzzles
Movies making laughter bubbles
Family time
Reading, lazing, joking
Alone time
Meditating, working, journaling
Time for reflection
Time for change
Making plans for what’s ahead!

03/28/2020 #openandbrave

Personal Growth

Just Keepin’ it REAL

This whole “quarantine” Social Distancing thing… Great intentions but making me feel a little LOONEY!!

Things I’ve been doing:

  • Working a few VERY LONG DAYS
  • Panicking over scheduling issues and hiring practices
  • Calming down and coming up with solutions (Thank You, to my mentor and boss)
  • Not sleeping great
  • Having panic attack
  • Calming down from panic attack
  • Doing (very little) art*
  • Doing Daily Gratitude*
  • Catching up on shows (Outlander fans?)
  • Watching fun, family friendly movies
  • Taking walks, sitting outside*
  • Texting with friends, and a few phone calls*
  • Snuggling with pets*
  • Snuggling with my hubby and daughter*
  • Cleaning (probably should do more)

* I need to ADD more of THESE!

How are you?

What is your “go-to” feel better thing?

#keepingitreal #openandbrave

Food For Thought

Angel Watching Over Me

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Something I made a few years ago while art journaling with Pastels.

Today, when I was feeling so anxious… looking at it reminded me of a time when I needed peace and found it hidden inside myself.

#openandbrave

Random Thoughts

Positivity In A Time of Crisis

During this time of social quarantine, school closures, supply panic and constant news loop of pandemic updates… try centering yourself.

Remember:

  • Who you are
  • What you believe in (faith)
  • What you value
  • Where your power lies (with YOU)
  • Take time to find forms of expression: art, writing, crafts, cooking…
  • Where do you find peace? Go there
  • Find ways to ground yourself in the HERE and NOW: meditation, music, breathing exercises

Stay strong! This too, shall pass. We will learn lessons and use them to be better prepared and more assured in the future.

Blessings

#choosejoy #openandbrave

Random Thoughts

Purpose

Borrowed: friend’s Facebook Post

It’s been a rough few days. Depression, anxiety, restless nights, challenging work situations to solve, and family members feeling stressed out… not sure what weighs more, but I’m tired and tired of sitting in this uncomfortable place.

#hangingon #feeling #openandbrave

Personal Growth

Honesty: Breaking Free

An Original, Feb 2020

I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want. AND what I’m afraid to ask for. Here is my list:

  • A close circle of friends I can ALWAYS depend on.
  • A Great Community of Women who enjoy sharing, supporting, and encouraging each other
  • EVE: Empowerment Vitality Evolution (living my mission)
  • Time and money to participate in growth opportunities that interest me.
  • To have AND be a LIFE COACH
  • Having an Accountability Buddy
  • More Romance in my life.
  • Making productive time for my mental and physical health (accountability buddy)
  • Adventure!
  • Being a leader (which scares the CRAP out of me!)

What are the things your HEART yearns for, but you’re afraid to put into words?

Food for thought…

#openandbrave #possibilities

Personal Growth

Don’t Quit

www.facebook.com/571419889954475/posts/612213985875065/

A video I did last year.

Rings true today as I am struggling with back pain and forced to do almost nothing.

Working on staying positive and looking on the bright side: I’m better today than yesterday, and I work from home where I can do a lot via cell phone and laptop.

Be Brave, Friends! Don’t Quit!!

#openandbrave

Food For Thought

I Love INTERESTING People

This quote by ??? Resonates with me. I love people…. but I especially love the “off-beat” ones. I’m drawn to artists, motivators, comedians, history buffs, sarcastic people, wounded people, healing people, mystics… the list could go on.

It’s not about the outside trappings: race, religion, age… it’s about the person who sparks something of interest in me: something I need or want to learn, life experience different from my own, points of view that make me think or question where I stand on any issue.

I guess I am basically curious by nature. What makes a person who they are? And… What can they teach me about the world and it’s people?

Also, I am admittedly a Square Peg… so to all those who think differently, feel like the outsider in a group, feel out-of-step… WELCOME 💕

YOU ARE MY PEOPLE!

#openandbrave