Do you ever see a drawing, painting, (some peice of art) that you just FELL INTO?
Let’s go fly a kite, Up to the highest hights!
Mary Poppins
Maja Lindberg is a Swedish artist with a whimsical flair. I just want to fall into a beautiful picture. Her amazing illustrations make me want to BE in the picture. I think She’s my new favorite artist, though she’s not “New” per se. She’s been around a long time.
Her pictures make me dream. I feel inspired. I want to be wisked away on a sea swept cliff. Be lost in a field of poppies. Run through a field with the wind in my hair.
I just got a new laptop/tablet that has handwriting and drawing capabilities! It’s so exciting and so intimidating in the same breath.
Whiteboard
The above is my first SAVED attempt at writing with my new pen. I love that it has an all-color (rainbow) affect. I’m still learning how to use the pen and control what’s on the screen. I’m also learning to use a smaller keyboard.
Do you enjoy learning new technology?
I used to love learining new software. Now, not so much. It seems as I get older, my learning curve seems to have slowed down. I still love learning new things but the tech is more challenge less fun.
This new laptop is a mix of both. the drawing aspect is is so fun! The new keyboard and new windows software less so.
I recently switched phones: iPhone to Samsung and I’m still learning the ropes! Thank God I have a teenager to help me. On this front she’s a true wonder.
Who helps you deal with new technology? Are you a tech whiz? Or like me, a former whiz turned struggler?
I can be imperfect and confident at the same time.
I Am Affirmations App
As part of my “People Pleaser” recovery, my therapist has me reading: The Wizard of Oz and Other Narcissists by Eleanor D. Payson, M.S.W. I am only halfway through Chapter 2 and already my mind is blown. I learned to be a People Pleaser from the BEST: Narcissists. Now come on! I can’t be alone on this!
Now I really need to finish the book to get all the benefits. I can already tell you I feel less crazy about the need to distance from certain people and the amount of relief I have in trusting my “gut” instincts.
I am always a “Work in Progress” and at the same time – enough.
Angelic Westfall affirmation 😉
For those of us who are empathetic, soft-hearted, optimists about people; Narcissists are the life-suckers who zap our energy without giving anything back. If you feel tired after every interaction with someone and they never show up when you’re in need, chances are strong you’re dealing with a narcissistic person (degrees of illness vary).
As I have started cleansing my life of the worst habitual offenders and understanding my own needs better, I have begun to be not only consistent, but CONFIDENT in my choices of action and decisions to stand by those actions – come what may. Just saying this out loud (or typing it) gives me a sense of Personal Power. “I can choose.” and not feel guilty later.
Tune in as I continue my journey, and please share your experience, that our shared support can help us all.
I am currently walking through a trauma recovery journey (some wounds take mtiple trips, I’m afraid).
Part of this journey will include forgiveness; some for myself and quite a lot for a few others.
Forgiveness is a tough road. Be gentle with yourself if you know it is needed and yet you are still not ready to commit to it.
Give yourself permission for all stages of grief and/or anger. There is no way to the end result that does not take you through the personal hell that is the healing process.
That is where I am. Smack-dab in the middle of the “walking through hell” part. I know someday soon I will be faced with the time to let go and forgive. It is just not that day today.
Having been here before and survived; AND found forgiveness, I know the healing of it.
Forgiveness releases ME from all the bitterness that eats away at my happiness. I will walk in its sunshine again. Until then, I’m trusting the process and holding on to faith.
Mine are always the internal, spiritual, intellectual journeys.
I am currently on such a journey: a trauma recovery journey. A journey I’ve walked many times. A lonely journey, if faith was not my companion.
Still, I can’t take my earthly companions with me. It’s a journey I walk with God, with my faith; believing in the currently unseen light at the end of the tunnel.
With faith we are never truly walking alone. It won’t be easy or quick, but this too shall pass.
This has always been my challenge and my desire. When I am successful, amazing growth, understanding, acceptance happen.
Getting off that mouse wheel of Life is the struggle.
Then again, sometimes I’m so worried I won’t like the answer that I intentionally practice avoidance.
Like right now… I know job applications should be top of my list, but it’s scary putting myself “out there” and easy to laze in the “status quo.”
My boundaries have improved and I’ve been granted 2 days off instead of one. (It’s taken 2.5 years and a serious bout of burnout). Now, instead of moving toward the NEW I’m languishing in the FAMILIAR.
I see this quote in two parts: willingness to step outside my comfort zone AND willingness to be quiet with myself to hear the answer to the question, “What is my next step?”
For me, this is my “Unicorn”. In today’s world people SAY they are open minded and all inclusive, but what they mean is: THINK LIKE ME.
THINK LIKE “ME” Is impossible. Unless you are a computer. A computer only has the information YOU add. The WORLD doesn’t work this way.
Every person comes with their own unique personality traits, which shape and are shaped by their personal life experience and the perspective of the culture and place in which they live. This puts us each in our own way of perceiving the world and the information we take in. And… Holy Moly!! There is a lot to take in! All the time, everywhere!
Add in our culture, place of origin, family upbringing, social setting, and personal life experience… and you have an individual who could be working, living beside you with different outlook on life and every little piece in it. None of this makes them, their thought, belief’s, understanding of incoming information “Wrong” if it is different from yours.
I find it’s a rare person who can listen without judgement. It’s rare to find anyone I can have an open honest discussion about…anything, agree or disagree, and still respect each other as unique and beautiful people we are.
I feel blessed to have met 2 people (one being my husband) who I can share any thought or feeling, thought out or still in development process, without fear of judgment.
We may not agree, but we always respect each other’s thought process, life experience, and learned knowledge that has brought us to the discussion “table” as valid and honest.
Have you been fortunate to have a family member, spouse, partner or friend who has let you be yourself in all aspects of your “being”?
Empowerment.Vitality.Evolution. 