Personal Growth

I Am a Recovering People Pleaser- Part 2

I can be imperfect and confident at the same time.

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As part of my “People Pleaser” recovery, my therapist has me reading: The Wizard of Oz and Other Narcissists by Eleanor D. Payson, M.S.W. I am only halfway through Chapter 2 and already my mind is blown. I learned to be a People Pleaser from the BEST: Narcissists. Now come on! I can’t be alone on this!

Now I really need to finish the book to get all the benefits. I can already tell you I feel less crazy about the need to distance from certain people and the amount of relief I have in trusting my “gut” instincts.

I am always a “Work in Progress” and at the same time – enough.

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For those of us who are empathetic, soft-hearted, optimists about people; Narcissists are the life-suckers who zap our energy without giving anything back. If you feel tired after every interaction with someone and they never show up when you’re in need, chances are strong you’re dealing with a narcissistic person (degrees of illness vary).

As I have started cleansing my life of the worst habitual offenders and understanding my own needs better, I have begun to be not only consistent, but CONFIDENT in my choices of action and decisions to stand by those actions – come what may. Just saying this out loud (or typing it) gives me a sense of Personal Power. “I can choose.” and not feel guilty later.

Tune in as I continue my journey, and please share your experience, that our shared support can help us all.

Recovering People Pleasers… UNITE!!

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And The Oscar Goes to… YOU!

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Who else is feeling it? Just me? 🤔

Special “Thank You” for the humor of Meridith Ethington of @perfectpending*.

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Trauma Recovery and Forgiveness Journey

I am currently walking through a trauma recovery journey (some wounds take mtiple trips, I’m afraid).

Part of this journey will include forgiveness; some for myself and quite a lot for a few others.

Forgiveness is a tough road. Be gentle with yourself if you know it is needed and yet you are still not ready to commit to it.

Give yourself permission for all stages of grief and/or anger. There is no way to the end result that does not take you through the personal hell that is the healing process.

That is where I am. Smack-dab in the middle of the “walking through hell” part. I know someday soon I will be faced with the time to let go and forgive. It is just not that day today.

Having been here before and survived; AND found forgiveness, I know the healing of it.

Forgiveness releases ME from all the bitterness that eats away at my happiness. I will walk in its sunshine again. Until then, I’m trusting the process and holding on to faith.

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The Journeys We Walk Alone

What journeys have you taken alone?

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Mine are always the internal, spiritual, intellectual journeys.

I am currently on such a journey: a trauma recovery journey. A journey I’ve walked many times. A lonely journey, if faith was not my companion.

Still, I can’t take my earthly companions with me. It’s a journey I walk with God, with my faith; believing in the currently unseen light at the end of the tunnel.

With faith we are never truly walking alone. It won’t be easy or quick, but this too shall pass.

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The Lessons I Learned, AGAIN

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Not gonna lie. 2021 really challenged my @fiveminutejournal attentiveness.

For the first time in three years I was not very good at doing my daily gratitude. I found myself trapped in a depression I couldn’t “Gratitude” Practice my way out of and everything I was in the pattern of doing for over 2 years came to a screeching halt.

I know what it’s like to feel stuck in a dark, unrelenting place. I was so burnt out from work, world noise, and the everyday negativity that seemed to permeate everyone and everything around me that I couldn’t see a way out…not even a way through. I got stuck in the “quicksand” of my hopeless thinking and all my positive practices slipped away.

  • First to go: yoga.
  • Then art/creativity.
  • Months later by my Daily Gratitude Practice.
  • Last was my daily water consumption (I always hit 64-80oz).

I finally admitted in October that I had hit bottom.

Here I have to say my therapist kept me from totally drowning. Weekly sessions, working on tiny “No’s” was truly my first step.

I had lost all sense of boundaries. I was an empty shell trying to still get through increasing stress at work, failing to be there as the mother, wife, and friend that I so love being. All because I had stopped “filling my cup.”

Peeps, I cannot stress enough the importance of caring for yourself FIRST.

I continue to learn this lesson the “Hard Way.”

Please, if you take away anything from my experience, let it be this:

  • BOUNDARIES
  • Acts of SELF-CARE
  • GRATITUDE

Keep these ALWAYS.

Then GROWTH is possible. And growth is necessary to our human experience. Growth keeps us moving forward. Keeps our minds elasticity and our body strong.

I pray that I never give up my desire and joy in learning new thing: skills, lessons, practices.

May 2022 bring you back to yourself, if you were lost; bring you positive energy, if you are feeling stuck; love, if you are feeling alone.

Blessings❤️

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Calvin and Hobbes Humor and Wisdom

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I’m still not there yet!

Too much information is not necessarily a good thing.

Nowadays everyone has something to say and no responsibility for the consequences for their words or actions.

This makes for a world of crazy information we are left to decipher into usable, logical, useful knowledge.

It’s exhausting!!!

I think I will just hide under a blanket and read a novel until the world makes sense again.

Peace out! ✌️

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Add a Dash of Sarcastic Humor!

When I need a good laugh, I lean toward sarcasm.

What makes you laugh?

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The Beach

Cozy Beach on a foggy day

Lately, The Beach has been my temple. Before you think I’m crazy, hear me out.

The beach is a calm place where I connect with: Nature, The Universe, and God.


Do you have a special place?

When I feel lost, lonely, scared, angry, confused, stressed, depressed, or anxious; I turn to nature – most often the beach. Even in my mind, I can picture the sand, hear the waves and the seagulls, feel the breeze on my skin, smell the ocean water. The peace washes over me and a sense of calm is restored. This is when I can here God’s answers most clearly.

New Year’s Day was foggy and wet. Still a walk and the beach was healing and full of hope for the New Year.

Seagulls, Sand, and Saltwater

I have spent most of my life living on one coast or the other in the USA. For this, I am blessed and grateful. I know this because I’ve spent short stints living in places that were land-locked… and my soul cried out constantly for the sea.

I know not everyone can live by an ocean. Even now, I technically live on “The Sound” which means no BIG WAVES.

Still, I am interested… is water your element? The ocean, the sound, the bay, the lake, the river, or the stream.

Is Earth your element? The woods, the mountain, the prairie, or the desert.

Are you a people-person who needs a building and a congregation? Church, Temple, Mosque.

Are you an Atheist or a Believer?

Where do you find healing? Is it God? Buddha? Hindi Gods & Goddesses? Mohammed? Christ? Nature? Mystical Energy? The Universe/Nature?

For me, I see “God” in all things. I love the teachings of Christ, The writings of Buddha, The energy of Nature, and the Mystery of Native and Celtic Mythology.

Wherever you are in your Faith Journey, I hope you feel the presence of a guiding Spirit holding you close and carrying you through these troubled times.

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Feeling Cuckoo for CocoaPuffs 🤪