Personal Growth

It’s Not Forever, Just For Right Now

Flipping through favorite pictures on my phone and came across this.

Zentangle by Angelic Westfall (Me) circa 8-2019

I drew this. This beautiful zentangle piece came from ME. The same me who’s been feeling like I’m failing at everything this week.

Just one of many reminders that just because I’m struggling right now, doesn’t mean it’s forever.

I will be this version of me, actually, a BETTER version of ME again. AFTER I walk through this uncomfortable, sometimes painful, challenging time I’m in right now.

I will create beautiful things.

I will be happy.

I will be in a better place. Once I have learned the lessons needed to get through NOW.

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I Am A Recovering People Pleaser

Barry M Sherbal

I’m doing it! One step at a time. Sometimes I falter. Sometimes I backslide. Sometimes I’m completely successful and walk away… knowing I will be ok.

This lesson of “I am Enough” is a hard one to learn when I’ve spent a lifetime pleasing others to gain acceptance and love.

Today, I do have unconditional love in my life from the people most important to me.

STILL, I haven’t completely put to rest those voices of my childhood that told me through repeated actions, inactions, verbal and nonverbal cues that I had to earn love, earn attention, earn worthiness.

If anyone feels this way now or has struggled with it in the past, my heart goes out to YOU.

YOU are Enough!

YOU are worthy of the life you want.

You are worthy of the love you want.

You are worthy of the career you want.

Whatever you can dream, you are enough for it!

We are always a “Work in Progress” and at the same time ENOUGH.

We are Enough to meet that challenge that scares us.

We are Enough to take that opportunity we secretly tell ourselves we don’t deserve.

We are Enough to be loved flaws and all.

We are Enough to walk away from relationships and situations that no longer serve us well.

As I type this, I say these things to myself: A reminder that I AM ENOUGH!

YOU ARE TOO ❤️

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How Media is Legally Allowed to Lie to You – Smith-Mundt Modernization Act w/ Alex Hilton

Mundt Act was passed after World War 2 for legal propaganda against all other countries except the US. The US never stopped propagandized the public but the statute allowed us to hold them accountable.

The Patriot Act is unconstitutional, in 2012 right before Christmas, this Smith-Mundt Modernization Act was sneaked through a partial Congress with the National Defense Authorization Act. 2 weeks later Sandy Hook happened. This needs to be reauthorized every few years because it is so criminal.

— Read on govbanknotes.wordpress.com/2021/09/29/how-media-is-legally-allowed-to-lie-to-you-smith-mundt-modernization-act-w-alex-hilton-acas46/

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Quotes That “Spoke” to Me

Albert Einstein on Pinterest
From Pinterest
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Taking A Much Needed “Time Out”

I’m in Athens, Georgia for 2 weeks to help family. I love them and I’m happy to have a job that allows me to work from anywhere so I can be here to help when they need it.

Those who are in the Healthcare profession or are caregivers for loved ones know what this means. It’s an act of love, done gratefully and (hopefully) gracefully. It is also emotionally, mentally, and physically draining.

This is a reminder that it’s time to take a BREAK, or as I call it a “Time Out.”

I’ve been here a week and today I needed that “time out.” Luckily, the weather has started to turn for Autumn and the temperature/humidity has let up and cooled. So today, my time is being spent outside.

The Georgia Botanical Gardens has always been a favorite place for me, when I lived here and now when I visit.

Botanical Garden Beauty
Water Feature at Visitor Center Entrance

As I sit by this beautiful water feature at the entrance to The Visitor Center, I feel my stress, sadness, anxiety and exhaustion melt away…

I hope you take a “Time Out” if you need it. Remember: you’re no good to anyone if you’re not good to yourself ❤️

Blessings.

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Secret to Happiness: Stay in Your Lane

Such simple instructions. I go even more pared down:

Stay in your own lane.

Pinterest

Why does human nature find it so hard to follow?

It seems on an individual level, less difficult; but add up to a group, society, or community…now it’s different. The almighty “WE” wants in your business and WE want to tell you what to do, what to think, how to do it and how to think.

Take a step back. It’s great to “Think Globally” but we must ACT individually.

ACTIONS speak louder than WORDS

Do you really understand what that statement means? It means:

  1. People won’t change because you tell them to or YELL at them to.
  2. People are change by how they see you behave.
  3. Act responsibly in your own life.
  4. Others will follow.

The caveat to this: Another’s responsibility is not the same as yours. It won’t look the same, think the same, act the same as yours.

Be ok with that. Stay in your own lane. Be the person who understands and takes to heart “Personal Responsibility” and you WILL make a difference. The kind of difference that changes the WORLD.

Blessings ❤️

Personal Growth

The Real Me and the “Me” You See

I’ve been gone a while. From my Blog, from the “Me” I want to be, from having anything I felt I could share. For this, I am sorry.

I know that the writings of others often help me when I feel low, and yet that is when I am least likely to share. I don’t like to show the ugly underbelly of my depression and anxiety and where it takes me. The flip side of that is that I know these are the things that people need to hear and see… my very HUMANNESS.

I only want to share when I’ve figured something out, or had a new revelation.These are important too. Still, others also need to see the struggle. So again, I’m sorry for not being here to share mine.

I promise to do better at showing up. In the meantime, here’s a bit of wisdom (from elsewhere) that struck me recently:

I am posting my picture with this list because:

  1. This picture is not me, and yet… it is me.
  2. The REAL ME needs that second picture. That list of “Reminders.”

I am this picture… sometimes. I am often NOT this picture. I am the same mess you feel like. I struggle to do those “healthy things.”

Some days I can’t get out of my pajamas. Some days I can’t get organized. I don’t have energy or make time for self-care: exercise, Art, journaling, writing that “To Do List” (or doing it!).

Don’t be fooled by this first picture. She looks like she’s doing everything right… all the things you think you “should” be doing.

The ME behind the picture needs people like YOU. You remind me it’s ok to be a “Work-in-Progress” the same way you need ME to remind you that this list of Affirmations are important.

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Victims, Crybabies, Lazy Thinkers, and Bullies

I feel like this is a commentary on ALL OF SOCIETY these days.

It used to just be a commentary on CHILDISH BEHAVIOR.

By Bill Watterson

WOW! How things have changed! Not for the better. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

I’m still trying to pin point the moment society flipped…

People like Soldiers, Police, Doctors, Innovators, and Doers were our HEROES!!

When did it become a GOOD THING to be:

  • A Victim
  • A Whiner
  • A Lazy Thinker

Now, people idolize Victims, Crybabies, and Bullies.

LIFE IS NOT FAIR. Never has been, never will be.

We are charged with the task of overcoming obstacles!

Pull up your Grown Up Pants and GET OVER IT!

Do the WORK.

Makes me sad to think the culture my daughter is growing up in doesn’t fit a single thing we’ve taught her to value.

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The Ugly Truth

Working up the nerve and the faith to write about my life raw and unvarnished. Just facing the journaling process is intimidating.

Anyone out there with experience sharing their hard-won experience honestly and without color?

Please share your thoughts.

I’ll be posting as I make progress on my journey.

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Faults or Achievements: What Legacy Is More Important?

Found on Pinterest while browsing for inspiration.

The George Washington Carver List really touched me. Also included are quotes by other Great Minds, Leaders, and Speakers: George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, Maya Angelou, and Thomas Sowell.

I think we often forget the wisdom of our past by belittling history’s accomplishments because we don’t agree with the social or societal “norms” of the time.

It’s important to look at all our Forefathers: Political, and Social leaders through the lens of what life was at like in their time.

Just because society wasn’t perfect, or an individual historical figure wasn’t perfect, does NOT DISMISS their overwhelming accomplishments.

Someday, people are going to look back on THIS time and judge.

How do you want to be judged?

By all the things you did and tried to do?

By your very human failings and mistakes?

We ALL have them.


God said, “Let he without sin cast the first stone.”


I am imperfect. I’ve made mistakes, hurt people, made bad choices.

I HOPE when I am gone, those are not the focus of my legacy.

I hope when I’m gone, I am remembered for the good I tried to add to the world. The love and time I gave to family and friends and strangers; for accepting people as they are, not how I wish they were.


What do you you want your legacy to include?