I admit this is jarring. I would even call it ugly. It’s how I feel.
I am drowning in sadness today. Today it is just too much. There is too much pain… and it is ugly and dark and angry and even scary.
I am at the bottom,
Pain chokes my soul.
Tears I want to shed won’t come.
The Tears won’t fall,
Screams stick in my throat.
The pain won’t come out.
Today is a hard day. I know it will pass, but today is still here.