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Have You tried any meal prep service?

We recently started a trial with HelloFresh. Our first order of ingredients for 3 meals arrived December 13, 2021.

12/13/2021: southwest beef cavatappi*, one pan moo shu pork bowls, chicken ramen in shout-style broth*,
12/20/2021: spiced chicken in apricot sauce*, sheet pan walnut-crusted salmon*, middle eastern chickpea bowls

12/27/2021: sheet pan herby balsamic pork tenderloin*, Tuscan chicken with balsamic tomato sauce, middle eastern chickpea bowls*(week2),

Week 1 favorites: Ramen💯. Week 3 favorites: chicken and the chickpea bowl. Week 3: pork tenderloin (haven’t made Tuscan Chicken yet).

Thoughts on trying the service:

  • Convenience 100%
  • Ease of use 80%
  • Trying new dishes 100%
  • Taste 60%

Having at least a few meals delivered with all the ingredients, instructions, and perfect portions is definitely a MAJOR PLUS. The opportunity to try new dishes: also a big plus. Ease of recipes, prep, and cleanup is decent, not perfect.

Now the biggie: TASTE. I think this is highly personal. Our family: not a fan of sauces of any kind, unless it’s on pasta. Also, we LOVE spicy food. These meals didn’t often hit the spice level we were hoping for.

Still, overall it’s been fun. We still have 2 weeks more to go. I’m still not convinced the value meets the benefit, but I’m keeping an open mind.

Have you ever tried a service like this?

Which one?

What are your thoughts?

Your experience?

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Feeling Cuckoo for CocoaPuffs 🤪

Personal Growth

Life Lessons 2021

Instagram @anxiety_wellbeing

Work in Progress…

These are HARD! All the lessons I’ve been learning in 2021 are around self-care and healthy boundaries.

Glad to know I’m not alone ❤️.

WHAT WILL 2022 BRING?

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Holiday Cards: Do You send them?

Christmas cards.

This year’s pick from Barnes & Noble

Who still sends them?

Anyone else struggling with Holiday Spirit?

I love receiving Holiday cards. It feels nice to be remembered, especially by friends and family we rarely or never see.

Usually, when I do Christmas cards, I feel the joy of the season; the excitement of looking forward to the cards we will receive. This year, sending Christmas Cards felt like a chore.

In fact, most of my “Holiday Cheer” has flown away… to where? I don’t know.

It seems many must be feeling it, as we’ve gotten much fewer cards than in years past. Then again, I’ll be finishing the last of my cards TODAY… 2 days before Christmas 🤦🏻‍♀️.

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Holiday Fun

Not sure where everyone is with the holidays this year, but I’ve been struggling.

Two Fun Day were: December 3, The Annual Lamplight Stroll in Milford, CT with a great friend. This same friend brought the Holiday Spirit to my house today (December19).

God Bless good friends. They invite you to fun things and their excitement is so infectious, it rubs off and you get out of your way despite yourself!

I was so not in the mood to socialize… but I made myself go. The Lamplight Stroll night was so fun!

Shops were open late, the Town Green was lit up like a magical wonderland, with vendors hocking homemade wares. There were Carolers and sleigh rides (we did not partake). We were FREEZING! And we were LAUGHING!

We stopped in at a local restaurant for appetizers and dessert. We talked for hours. I stayed out WAAAY past my usual bedtime 😉. It was the most fun I’ve had with a friend in over a year.


Today’s fun: Gingerbread cookies, tea, a fire, painting rocks (painting!), Christmas music and hot cocoa.

My friend has been painting rocks for several years. Her rocks (pictures below) are spectacular! She is so talented with the tiny details!

My Friend’s Rock Painting Masterpieces

So this is probably only the second time I’ve tried painting rocks. I decided to let go of expectations and just have fun with it.. no comparing myself to my friend and her superior skills. Just FUN!

My results are below. I’m pretty proud of my efforts.

My painted Materpeices

Most important, we were RELAXED. We had FUN, we LAUGHED. We SANG along to Christmas songs. We sipped Hot Cocoa by the fire and gushed compliments on 16 for her cocoa-making skills.

Christmas time at home

I feel happy and relaxed. That’s not something I’ve felt often of late. I want to wallow in it. Roll around and cover myself with this happy, content feeling and ride it straight through the New Year!

Best wishes to all 🥰

Personal Growth

The Old That Is Strong Does Not Wither

I’ve felt very low of late, and not at all inspired to share.

Then THIS. A beautiful Sunday afternoon at the beach with my loving partner, Don; and the cold, brilliant blue sky. A beautiful walk and time spent in meditation on the beach. Even a RAINBOW (not pictured).

Photo by Angelic Westfall, Cozy Beach

And today THIS. A quote from J. R. R. Tolkien found on Pinterest.

We all know that first line: “All that glitters is not gold.” Personally, I’d never heard the whole quote or knew it came from R. R. Tolkien’s Lord of the Rings series.

Today I am feeling inspired.

For the first time in quite a long while, I FEEL the sunshine.

I am emerging from the darkness and coming into the LIGHT.

Love and Light to all who are struggling. May you see the Light at the end of your tunnel ❤️.

Food For Thought

Let Them Be Little

What can I say??

ALL THE CLICHES…

  • Time Flies
  • They grow up too fast
  • Enjoy each moment

The TRUTH is… at 3-years-old (2008), little Miss was Hell On Wheels. She tested EVERYTHING. The day this picture was taken, we had a 4-hour Showdown over cleaning up a mess.

There have been many moments I thought “I can’t do this, be the Mom she needs.” At 16-years-old (2021),I still sometimes feel the same way.

Still, it’s been an beautiful journey. I’m so proud to be THIS GIRL’S mom.

We guarded her childhood like we were on a MISSION. That Mission: for her to be a child for as long as possible.

2020 kinda blew that out of the water. Being bombarded with so much stuff and all of us “hanging on” for dear life. It seems like this almost 2 years have gone in Fast-Slow-Motion.

All of the sudden she’s 16, a Junior in High School, and one foot out the door to “Real Life.”

We’re now talking College and careers and all sorts of grownup things. She’ll be 17 soon, then I’ll BLINK and she’ll be 18 and heading off into The World.

GAHHH! Some days I really do want to go back to 3. It’s sounds crazy even as I say it… because 3 was HAIR-RAISING! But the challenges were smaller.


Today I worry:

  • Did I teach her enough?
  • Is she going to be ready for the things life throws her way?
  • Am I going to be ready to give her up to… LIFE?

As much as “people” like to wax poetic about “Enjoy Every Moment” parenthood is a non-stop Rollercoaster Ride: sometimes exhilarating, often terrifying, full of laughter and tears, a ride that ends at 18.

Of course, you NEVER stop being a parent, but the job is very different. You’re on the sidelines not in the event.

As someone who’s childhood was not protected, who “grew up” WAY too young, I am glad that my daughter has had the childhood I couldn’t have: carefree, play dates and imagination run amok.

I love the young woman she’s becoming and the evolution of our relationship. I also love reminiscing about play-do and dress up, glitter everywhere and slime, the excitement of “Firsts.”

So, even though I KNOW it’s cliche…

Enjoy the moments, let them be carefree.

Personal Growth

It’s Not Forever, Just For Right Now

Flipping through favorite pictures on my phone and came across this.

Zentangle by Angelic Westfall (Me) circa 8-2019

I drew this. This beautiful zentangle piece came from ME. The same me who’s been feeling like I’m failing at everything this week.

Just one of many reminders that just because I’m struggling right now, doesn’t mean it’s forever.

I will be this version of me, actually, a BETTER version of ME again. AFTER I walk through this uncomfortable, sometimes painful, challenging time I’m in right now.

I will create beautiful things.

I will be happy.

I will be in a better place. Once I have learned the lessons needed to get through NOW.

Food For Thought · Personal Growth

I Am A Recovering People Pleaser

Barry M Sherbal

I’m doing it! One step at a time. Sometimes I falter. Sometimes I backslide. Sometimes I’m completely successful and walk away… knowing I will be ok.

This lesson of “I am Enough” is a hard one to learn when I’ve spent a lifetime pleasing others to gain acceptance and love.

Today, I do have unconditional love in my life from the people most important to me.

STILL, I haven’t completely put to rest those voices of my childhood that told me through repeated actions, inactions, verbal and nonverbal cues that I had to earn love, earn attention, earn worthiness.

If anyone feels this way now or has struggled with it in the past, my heart goes out to YOU.

YOU are Enough!

YOU are worthy of the life you want.

You are worthy of the love you want.

You are worthy of the career you want.

Whatever you can dream, you are enough for it!

We are always a “Work in Progress” and at the same time ENOUGH.

We are Enough to meet that challenge that scares us.

We are Enough to take that opportunity we secretly tell ourselves we don’t deserve.

We are Enough to be loved flaws and all.

We are Enough to walk away from relationships and situations that no longer serve us well.

As I type this, I say these things to myself: A reminder that I AM ENOUGH!

YOU ARE TOO ❤️

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How Media is Legally Allowed to Lie to You – Smith-Mundt Modernization Act w/ Alex Hilton

Mundt Act was passed after World War 2 for legal propaganda against all other countries except the US. The US never stopped propagandized the public but the statute allowed us to hold them accountable.

The Patriot Act is unconstitutional, in 2012 right before Christmas, this Smith-Mundt Modernization Act was sneaked through a partial Congress with the National Defense Authorization Act. 2 weeks later Sandy Hook happened. This needs to be reauthorized every few years because it is so criminal.

— Read on govbanknotes.wordpress.com/2021/09/29/how-media-is-legally-allowed-to-lie-to-you-smith-mundt-modernization-act-w-alex-hilton-acas46/