I am currently walking through a trauma recovery journey (some wounds take mtiple trips, I’m afraid).
Part of this journey will include forgiveness; some for myself and quite a lot for a few others.
Forgiveness is a tough road. Be gentle with yourself if you know it is needed and yet you are still not ready to commit to it.
Give yourself permission for all stages of grief and/or anger. There is no way to the end result that does not take you through the personal hell that is the healing process.
That is where I am. Smack-dab in the middle of the “walking through hell” part. I know someday soon I will be faced with the time to let go and forgive. It is just not that day today.
Having been here before and survived; AND found forgiveness, I know the healing of it.
Forgiveness releases ME from all the bitterness that eats away at my happiness. I will walk in its sunshine again. Until then, I’m trusting the process and holding on to faith.